Well guys it's December, and I'm on the countdown. I've been waiting and waiting for it, and now I'm finally home with my parents doing all the things I always do for Christmas.
Why is it the second I start wrapping things and making Dads toffee that it seems like time just slows down? Christmas has been racing at me going a million miles a minute, and then suddenly it almost halts? What? It's a good thing though, I have no desire to leave home anytime soon, although eventually I will have to go back to my apartment and survive another semester of a roommate I can't stand any more of. I hate that even when I leave to come home, drama and ignorance follow me. I give up. I honestly do.
I just want this school year to be over, then it will be me and Amber in control again. I'm to afraid to say anything right now. Afraid I will offend of piss off people. Afraid even when they walk over me to stand up for myself because I have to live with this girl. And tonight I did. Life is about to become a living hell when I get back, but I don't care. I can't let her do whatever she wants anymore. I have to say something when she hurts me, or nothing will ever change. That would be worse.
All I can say in this end here is that I can't wait for her to move out. Harsh I know, but I'm miserable. And I am honest on here, it's like a journal for me. So being honest, I will probably hurt some one before I let her live there after this summer. I need her gone. And I'm not the only one.
ANYWAY, that was an awful horrible rant, and later I will post much Christmas happiness to make up for it. But that's all for tonight.
Dream Big,
B. Marie
Why is it the second I start wrapping things and making Dads toffee that it seems like time just slows down? Christmas has been racing at me going a million miles a minute, and then suddenly it almost halts? What? It's a good thing though, I have no desire to leave home anytime soon, although eventually I will have to go back to my apartment and survive another semester of a roommate I can't stand any more of. I hate that even when I leave to come home, drama and ignorance follow me. I give up. I honestly do.
I just want this school year to be over, then it will be me and Amber in control again. I'm to afraid to say anything right now. Afraid I will offend of piss off people. Afraid even when they walk over me to stand up for myself because I have to live with this girl. And tonight I did. Life is about to become a living hell when I get back, but I don't care. I can't let her do whatever she wants anymore. I have to say something when she hurts me, or nothing will ever change. That would be worse.
All I can say in this end here is that I can't wait for her to move out. Harsh I know, but I'm miserable. And I am honest on here, it's like a journal for me. So being honest, I will probably hurt some one before I let her live there after this summer. I need her gone. And I'm not the only one.
ANYWAY, that was an awful horrible rant, and later I will post much Christmas happiness to make up for it. But that's all for tonight.
Dream Big,
B. Marie